Serenity

The state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled.

Distinction.

[that's the difference between you and me]

[i have faith]

[the universe is opulent]

The Dope Show.

Sigur Ros.

Sigur Ros - Við spilum endalaust - A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

Mother's Day

Yesterday was mother's day so my family went to Golden Dragon for lunch. Somehow I ended up having to sit at the kid's table. We were all sitting and eating when my dad walked passed my grandma. She grabbed his arm really quick and said, "what's the matter you don't want me to touch you? well i'm going to anyway, and i'm going to pray aloud for you too!" I don't know why but I started laughing so hard.

Bodies of Water.I heard It Sound

SPLIT 1 BODIES OF WATER - I HEARD IT SOUND
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Yo La Tengo

Yo La tengo - A Take Away Show - Part 1 from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

Grizzly Bear.Shift

#10.1 - Grizzly bear - Shift
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Enemies.Losses

Enemies - Losses / A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

What the f*ck is life?

Where did we come from?

Did we just appear and automatically start to babble?

Who the hell are we?

Imagine the complexity of language itself.

It's both weird and confusing.

It's too much to understand.

It's huge.

Tell me you don't love me.

You say you're not in love with me and yet you stay around.

You say you haven't a heart for me and yet you're in every sound.

Tell me you don't love me.

Tell me this is real.

Because from where I'm standing, this can't really be how you feel.

A Searching Heart.

If your heart is always searching can it ever find a home?

will it ever pull together to find the right one?

Or will it continue searching until there is no one left to be found.

Let this heart stop searching and rest for awhile.

I can't take much more of this feeling, this sorrow.

So for now I will wait, patiently and true.

Waiting for the one, the real one that is you.

Wicked Game.

The world was on fire
No one could save me but you.
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No, I don't want to fall in love
[This love is only gonna break your heart]
No, I don't want to fall in love
[This love is only gonna break your heart]
With you
With you

What a wicked game you play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do
To make me dream of you
And I don't wanna fall in love
[This love is only gonna break your heart]
And I don't want to fall in love
[This love is only gonna break your heart]

World was on fire
No one could save me but you
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you
I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No I don't wanna fall in love
[This love is only gonna break your heart
No I don't wanna fall in love
[This love is only gonna break your heart]
With you
With you

Chris Isaak

The day you realize forever was a never.

Just when you think forever is going to last

Something wipes it all away

I've loved and lost

I've been broken and shattered

Awaken from the pain

I finally see His healing place

I've moved passed the lonely

and found refuge in His strength

Tears fall down my empty face

As He wakes me up from my fall from grace

The day you realize forever was a never.

Dreams.

I had the weirdest dream last night.

I was being stalked by some mobsters and if I made a wrong move they would kill me.

Then there were all these boats and on each boat it was a different "theme" which meant ethnicity sort of... So I picked the "hip-hop" boat and it was full of rapper types. It was so odd. Then I met some guy named Jason that was in love with me. Such a weird night of dreams.

Rosy Cheeks.

You feel that heat on your cheeks?

That's God's love.

He's holding your face, while you stand still.

Showing you that He is here.

Even when you don't feel him near.

Hiding alone will never suffice.

He's always here, sitting at your bedside.

To keep your cheeks warm, to hold you while you cry.

Circus.

"We're Just Friends"

Over and over and over again
I say that were just friends

Forget the implications
Infatuations end
If loves so easy, why is it hard
I can't imagine ever being apart
I'll come back to you
Itd be brand new
But I promise
We're just friends

Over and over and over again
I try to make amends
For everything Ive done wrong
My whole world just spins
Make some coffee, hold me up
Try to talk me out of giving up
I'll come back to you
It'll be brand new
But I promise
We're just friends

--Wilco

Forget.

Forget regret

Refrain from pain

Life is too short to live this way.

One Chance.

If it's meant to be, it will be.

If not then there is something better out there waiting for you.

You only get one chance, one life.

Creativity.

I realized that the reason I cry randomly may be because I don't have a creative outlet like I used to with singing and shows.

Love is Dear.

Hold it close
Never fear
For the most
You've lost it once
You've lost it twice
Hope to feel how much it cost

Fantasy Man

This diamond's growing in the mountains
beneath the pressure of all time
that glow in hope and expectation
waiting for your hands to find
'cause only you could reach inside me
and figure out the worth
of a life I live providing
what it was you needed most

And if everything is measured
by the hole it leaves behind
then this mountain has been leveled
and there's no more diamonds in the mine
go on now just leave it
the timing wasn't right
and the forces that swept us both away
was too strong for us to fight

Fantasy man you are always
one step ahead of me
well I never heard a warning
I haven't got things right
the sun came out this morning
and filled my room with light
so go now you are forgiven
let's put it down to light
the story of two lovers
would dance both edges of the night

In the station you were standing
not knowing what you want
and the secrets that we're defending
have become our only bond
just be patient while I wait here
journeys out of sync
while you're out there running in the chaos
I need some time to think

Fantasy man you are always
one step ahead of me
well I never heard a warning
I haven't got things right
the sun came out this morning
and filled my room with light
so go now you are forgiven
let's put it down to light
the story of two lovers
would dance both edges of the night

--The Swell Season

I love this song, I just heard it for the first time recently but for some reason I listen to it over and over again. hahah You should listen to it! :]

love.

Never.

I sit and wonder.
I wish and ponder.

Are you coming back?

Probably never.

Slow.

Move move move
We all keep moving
Running in every direction
The weeks fly by and yet it seems like it has been forever
We lose track of what is real, what is ours
Slow down.

Unrequited Love.

'You're beautiful.'
The words I barely heard.
And yet I still love you.

Static.

Crackling sounds.
Missing solidarity.
Surfing channels.
Taking stands.
Doing, loving.

Erosion.

Eroding away
like the sand of a dune
like acid rain on a statue

Stripping the layers
getting closer to the core

With every layer
a new color emerges

Searching for the root
the reason for it all

One after another
I get closer and closer to You

Finding a new strength in each one

Seeing truth for the first time

Truth is at the center

Guilt.

Rid me of this guilt
I need to stop blaming myself
It wasn't my fault.

My heart is sore
heavier than ever before

I feel dirty and used
like and old rag

I need Your grace
take me from this place

I shouldn't regret
but it returns over and over

I have not arrived
Even when I thought I have
You humble me yet again

I need Your mercy
Show me where I need to be

I have a critical heart
Setting expectations that couldn't be reached
For that I feel remorse

Guilt. Guilt. Guilt.

Really?

When were you going to tell me?
When will this end?
I can't take much more of this.
My whole body aches.

Grieve.

Everything is strange
Nothing feels the same

I've cried every day
Since you broke my heart

I need to get ready
For a brand new start

Empty. Empty. Empty.

I feel empty
I think about you every moment of every day
I haven't slept in weeks
When I finally do I have dreams of you
Over and over again
I miss you more than I even realize
It feels like something is missing
I wonder if this will ever go away
My heart hurts, it's so tender
I struggle to breathe
With every breath I pray that one day
I'll wake up and feel normal
Until then, I am empty.

Dictaphones Lament

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmYz9XFOuOg

Amazing.

Sugar in the Raw

soft and low the sugars flow
with wicked eyes the eve i know
sorrow builds with hidden regret
a timeless spill that even i don't know yet

Slumber

A slinky mistress
soft and seductive

close enough to touch

the distance is greater
we're divided by such

a love everlasting
wasn't strong enough

alive in the new year
praying for rebirth

fallen memory
becomes faint even still

a mind that's blank
awaken in slumber