The Day After.

That was probably the best birthday I've ever had. :]
My friends threw me a surprise birthday party in the guys' lounge last night.
I got to see all of my family.
Haley stayed the night, I love her.
I went on a lovely walk.
and life is looking good. :]
I'm excited to see what the future holds, just letting it be and taking things day by day.
I think it's best.
<3
.Bea

Nineteen.

Today is my nineteenth birthday! It has been really great so far. My parents, sister, nieces, grandmas, and Haley! are all coming and taking me out to dinner. I can't wait. :]

Right now Nicole and I are sitting in my lazy boy watching It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, best show ever.

Love you all.
.Bea

Quicksand.

Running slowly never catching up
Feet fall in quicksand ever so abrupt

You try to pull out
The sand keeps you down
You can’t get out of this sinking ground

Hold onto that branch
As if it’s your only chance

That lifeline you hold
Breaks more easily than you know

It can’t save your soul
It can’t say it’s a hole
It can’t be so bold
As to rescue you from this mold

Moving a little faster
Sinking even further

Arm stretched out
Reaching for another
You realize it will never
Be the same again

Sink a little deeper
This sand is getting thicker
No, it won’t let you slip

It’s pulling you down
Holding you close
Waiting for you to call it quits

Don’t ever give in
For soon you’ll know
That this is merely fantasy

Wide-awake now
You’re released from the pit
A rush of relief you’d never admit

The sand that once held your life
Wasn’t as strong as you’d assumed
It never existed it was only a wound

God is Love.

This is a video I made in Communication Technology last semester. I went around and asked random people what love meant to them and this is what they came up with.

Love is all you need, because God is love.

.Bea

Both Sides of a Wounded Soul.

About a month ago my friend Nicole wrote a song on the piano and asked me to write the lyrics. So we sat down and this is what came of it...

Verse 1:
There you are always seeing right through to me: knowing and loving you get to the heart of me.
You are my lullaby singing me right to sleep:
Dreaming and seeing you know that I can’t let you go. Keeping me close to you breaking my heart into two:

Grasping and pulling, I know you won’t let me go.
Here are the pieces they are painted black and blue.

Verse 2:
Please be gentle this love thing is new to me
Giving my heart is not done too easily
Waiting and praying and fearing that you saw me too.

Into your arms is right where I want to be
Holding me tightly with love that’s no good for me
This pain in my heart is drawing me closer to you

Now love hold me closely don’t let me fall too far away
Now love listen to my song as these words are sinking through.

Verse 3:
Here I am waiting I’m lost in the heart of it
Watching and hoping that I’m not alone in this
You are the love song that’s written inside of me

Chorus I&II:
Grasping and pulling, I know you won’t let me go.
Here are the pieces they are painted black and blue.
Now love hold me closely don’t let me fall too far away
Now love listen to my song as these words are sinking through.


There you are always seeing right through to me: knowing and loving you get to the heart of me.
You are my lullaby singing me right to sleep…

A New Day.

Lately I've been feeling very selfish and apathetic. Then I realized how it would be so easy to change this mind set and use it for something good.

In this life we are meant to encourage each other and show the love of God to every person whether we are intentionally talking about it or not. Life was meant to be full of relationships and loving one another with a sense of peace rather than conflict.

I want to be a better person.
This does not mean I want to try and save the rain forest, although it is a good cause.
It just means that I want to take this life I have been given and share it with others. I want to take time each day to become more aware of those around me. I need to love.

I have a lot of passion that I have not yet found an effective way to focus it all in one place.
This is it.

Love God and Love People.

It is what I want to put my passion into.
Living for God and people.

I challenge you.
Give a compliment to at least one person a day.
See how it makes you feel.

Love Wins.
Bea