Static.

Crackling sounds.
Missing solidarity.
Surfing channels.
Taking stands.
Doing, loving.

Erosion.

Eroding away
like the sand of a dune
like acid rain on a statue

Stripping the layers
getting closer to the core

With every layer
a new color emerges

Searching for the root
the reason for it all

One after another
I get closer and closer to You

Finding a new strength in each one

Seeing truth for the first time

Truth is at the center

Guilt.

Rid me of this guilt
I need to stop blaming myself
It wasn't my fault.

My heart is sore
heavier than ever before

I feel dirty and used
like and old rag

I need Your grace
take me from this place

I shouldn't regret
but it returns over and over

I have not arrived
Even when I thought I have
You humble me yet again

I need Your mercy
Show me where I need to be

I have a critical heart
Setting expectations that couldn't be reached
For that I feel remorse

Guilt. Guilt. Guilt.

Really?

When were you going to tell me?
When will this end?
I can't take much more of this.
My whole body aches.

Grieve.

Everything is strange
Nothing feels the same

I've cried every day
Since you broke my heart

I need to get ready
For a brand new start

Empty. Empty. Empty.

I feel empty
I think about you every moment of every day
I haven't slept in weeks
When I finally do I have dreams of you
Over and over again
I miss you more than I even realize
It feels like something is missing
I wonder if this will ever go away
My heart hurts, it's so tender
I struggle to breathe
With every breath I pray that one day
I'll wake up and feel normal
Until then, I am empty.

Dictaphones Lament

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rmYz9XFOuOg

Amazing.

Sugar in the Raw

soft and low the sugars flow
with wicked eyes the eve i know
sorrow builds with hidden regret
a timeless spill that even i don't know yet

Slumber

A slinky mistress
soft and seductive

close enough to touch

the distance is greater
we're divided by such

a love everlasting
wasn't strong enough

alive in the new year
praying for rebirth

fallen memory
becomes faint even still

a mind that's blank
awaken in slumber